“…Sacrifices must be made in pursuit of a dream…”

I once said that when I gave up one of the most important things in my life: my job. Though I felt bad about it, I lifted my head high and moved onward with my life, pursuing my happiness. More than a month later, here I am, still pursuing my happiness, and back at square one. The sacrifices I had made pursuing my happiness and my dream had all seem in vain. Here I am, on the verge of collapse, not only because of my failure, but also of my shame. Too many people have also sacrificed much of their time and resources for me. Maybe I should revise what I said earlier:

“…Sacrifices must be made in pursuit of a dream…”

into:

“…SOME PEOPLE MUST SACRIFICE in pursuit of MY DREAM…”

I once thought of giving up, the coward in me saying that my dream is way out of my reach, that it would be better of to go back to the way everything was. Ironically, it is because of my shame and cowardice that I force myself to move on and pursue that dream. So may people have sacrificed for me, and I cannot let those sacrifices be in vain, too. I know in time, I will be able to repay them for all the things they have given up for me.

To the people I have disturbed and to the people who have sacrificed much for me, thank you so much. Please bear with me for a little longer. I will repay double of what I owe to you.

typing this entry while tears are falling on the keyboard… emo much… ewwww…